Monday, July 30, 2012

Love So Life Chapter 51 Summary

Last chapter of volume 9! I chose this picture because I think take-charge Matsunaga-san is super handsome <33



This chapter was all-around pretty sad. It started with Shiharu going into the guidance councilor’s office to discuss her plans for college. On the form all students are required to fill out with the information about the college they are hoping to attend, Shiharu wrote that she will attend Iwanami University and major in early childhood education, and will be in the 2nd Division, which is a 3-year-long night/evening classes program. She explains that she wants to go to college at night so she can work in a daycare during the day. The teacher tells her that the special program she selected doesn’t have any scholarships, but Shiharu tells him that she’s been saving up from her part-time job all this time, and by the time she graduates she should have enough money to pay the tuition(so impressive!) She also mentions that she’ll receive a payment of around $2000 from the government when she leaves the orphanage, and although the teacher points out that amount is not even enough to pay the admission fees, she says she’s grateful for anything she can get. He keeps pushing her, saying that another school where she can get scholarships might be better, but Shiharu insists that she’ll do her best and really wants to go to this school. When the teacher asks why, it comes out that, among other things, Shiharu really likes the location of the school. After leaving the guidance counselor’s office, Shiharu explains in her thoughts that the school is near the town where she and her mother lived when she was a kid, and that when she leaves the orphanage and has to start over from 0 on her own, she’d like to do it in a familiar place, at least. She also explains that there’s a crack in her heart because of the twins leaving, and she wants to do her best to prepare ahead of time, so that she’ll have something to fill it with. I was struck by how mature her way of thinking was, and it also answered a question I’d been wondering about for a while: whether Shiharu had any intention of dealing with the twins leaving, or if she was just gonna make a sad face every time the topic is brought up, and ultimately continue in denial. But I respect her even more now, knowing that she is thinking about how to accept the fact that they are leaving and move on. Anyways! In the next scene, the kids at the daycare are doing “Make-believe Aerobics” and pretending to be rabbits, hopping and using their hands as pretend “ears.” It’s really cute and the kids seem to enjoy it, except for Aoi. Shiharu asks him what’s wrong and he says bluntly “Ao-kun is not a rabbit.” LOL Shiharu coaxes him to participate by telling him that it will make his body strong and he’ll be able to look really cool while doing “Cosmo Kick.” In the next scene, Shiharu is in Nao-kun’s room in the orphanage, and she asks him what he’s planning to do after highschool. He shocks her by telling her he’s not going to college, he’s going to start working instead. Shiharu asks him why, since he’s so smart and he says that he doesn’t have the money. She starts to suggest he get financial aid or scholarships, but he cuts her off by saying he doesn’t want to create any debts to anyone. He then says that he’ll work like crazy for 1-2 years and save up, and if he still wants to go back to school, he’ll take the entrance exams then.  Nao-kun starts to turn the conversation to a confrontation about her misunderstanding his love confession in the last chapter, but just then Nao’s roommate, who neither of them realized was in the same room with them, sleeping in the bottom bunk of the bunk bed, wakes up, and Nao-kun is glad he didn’t mention the love confession! The next day, Shiharu takes a train to her old hometown for the first time in 10 years. She’s really eager to see a lot of shops that used to be in front of the station and on the way to her house, but when she arrives she’s shocked to find everything is different than it used to be. The station is much newer and has multiple floors now, the bookstore where she and her mother used to shop was converted into a convenience store, and there are newly constructed buildings all over the place. She gets a real shock when she finds out that the apartment building where she used to live was demolished and there is now an empty lot there. Although she rationalizes it in her mind (it was already old when she used to live there, so 10 years later there’s no way it would still be there, etc) but her body language betrays how traumatized she is. I thought the author did a really good job with this scene, it was really moving. Shiharu sits alone in the station not saying or thinking anything as train after train leaves and arrives. The next day at the daycare, Shiharu is throwing even more effort than usual into her work, and even the teachers notice it. Matsunaga-san comes to pick up the twins that day, instead of Shiharu taking them home as usual, and a really funny scene occurs when he tries to greet her. She answers him cheerful and responds appropriately, but she refuses to look him in the eye. He keeps trying to make eye contact with her, but she’s REALLY OBVIOUSLY looking in the complete other direction and looks somewhere else every time he tries to shift himself into her line of sight. He can tell something is obviously wrong and tries to insist that she tell him about it (see the preview picture) but Shiharu remembers all the times in the past that he comforted her when she was upset, and thinks over and over “I can’t.” Then she thinks that if she “looks to Matsuanga-san” (both physically looking at him, and emotionally looking for him to comfort her) she’ll lose the ability to be okay on her own. Finally she freaks out and screams “Ahhh!” and shoves him right back out the door! Matsunaga-san lands on his butt and looks thoroughly shocked (though at the same time, he kind of looks like he liked it??!) and while apologizing profusely, Shiharu thinks to herself “I don’t want Matsunaga-san to see how weak I am right now.”




6 comments:

  1. That was a sad chapter ;_;

    So that was her plan after graduation. But going to another town would mean separating from Matsunaga, doesn't it...? Well, it doesn't seem to be far away but..........

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    1. I wonder if she's planning to never see him again after the twins leave... She won't the the 'excuse' of coming to his house to take care of them anymore.

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    2. And he won't have the excuse to invite her over... Maybe Ayumi's appearance will help the development? Otherwise I thought maybe since Shiharu realized her feelings, she wouldn't want to leave and Matsunaga will 'help' by deciding to keep the twins? Either way, we'll find out next week. And in the meantime I'll just die of curiousity. Still I'm thankful there's a new chapter twice a month. If I had to wait for a whole month for just one chapter...... Oh God... XD;

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  2. I LOVE THIS!!!!!!!! I think everything will work out. I LOVE IT!!! I just can't say enough. THANKS SO MUCH!!!!!

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    1. Hehe thanks so much for your enthusisatic support. I really hope it does work out :D

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  3. First, I've got to say that your blog is wonderful and I love reading your spoilers, because Mangafox & Co. are very slow. Thank you for all.

    Now my comment: Recently I have re-read the first chapters (in fact, the 4th one, when Shiharu met her mother's relatives in her funeral), and I've noticed that one of the reasons of their rejection to adopt her was some kind of problem with "Ayako's inheritance" (who's that Ayako? Possibly Shiharu's mother, but I'm not sure at all).

    Well, after reading this post, I've realized something awful about Shiharu's situation: she was an obstacle to her mother's relatives, and they were so eager to get rid of her that they didn't simply send her to an orphanage, but to an orphanage IN A DIFFERENT CITY.

    Now that's what I call selfishness...

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